The halves of me …

The halves of me …
It takes much work to reach a state of balance, to be centered in the heart and observe without judgment. Even with years of practice, we all tend to react and judge at time and that is very normal. Thanks to the myriad of things that happened to me in life, I had the privilege (even if it didn’t feel like that, at the time) to take time to journey within and reach that state of Oneness and Peace where there is no separation, identity and judgment. From that space I don’t see, but I feel, I am an awareness in the eternity of the present moment.
BUT when I live my daily life, sometimes I sense the separation and in this crucial time on our planet, to keep that holy internal balance and focus on Love can feel daunting, and even if I know it is my natural state of being, my human self wants to have a saying in it. I am a Human Being and I am a Divine Being and I must be honest, to keep myself in a state of non-judgment and Oneness, sometimes feels wrong. Why? Because so much is happening around me and I feel this rush of energy that kicks and scream because of the abuse that has been going on for so long and that people don’t want to see…. Not even now! It is not just the 95% of my subconscious mind reacting and screaming, but the subconscious of the collective.
So, I decided to cut me some slack and I have observed myself without judgement in the last 2 months, through all my states of being, from the loving and caring to the reactive and angry. I just observed. I saw myself in everything and then I meditate, and I felt the self disappears. And I love being in my heart, meditating to bring forth LOVE every day. I always look forward to my meditation time, to be in that space, where I sense that Love energy moving through this Earth and affecting, uplifting and empowering everyone.
When I am not meditating, I want to be informed of what is happening in the world. I don’t like burying my head in the sand and pretend that is all well. Maybe it is already all well, I know we are already out of this transition and Love has already won. But in my daily life, I see so much, and I cannot keep my mouth shut, my eyes closed and pretend that nothing is happening, although at heart I know it is an illusion.
I have been struggling so much with these halves of myself because sometimes, in the mist of a turmoil, I forget I am already whole and divine and human at the same time without separation. And if you are like me, you know exactly how it feels.
We see the illusion and insanity of what is happening, and at the same time we can center ourselves in our heart, be in this gorgeous present moment filled with Love and Peace.
We see and sense the three sides of the coin: face, head, and edge.
We see the damages, the abuse, and the thirst of power of a few at the expenses of many. Sometimes, we feel stretched between the two opposite poles until we realize that this is the illusion of separation, all sizes teaching us to be centered and balanced in the heart, in Love.
It gets difficult at times, though. So much comes up for us and we don’t know what to do.
And of course, as humans (and it is OK and normal) we react, judge, and get angry because we cannot let what is happening, going on. And, how can we? Children, man, women, animals, living beings are sufferings for the thirst of power and control of a bunch of psychopaths and sociopaths with money.
When I look at the world, I see these halves too. I love them both, I have these halves in me too.
I see
The ones they called naïve, idealists, “conspiracy theorists”, the rebels, the activists, the crazy hippies, the threat to “democracy” or in the words of Rob Siltanen: “…the crazy ones. The misfits. The rebels. The troublemakers. The round pegs in the square holes. The ones who see things differently. They’re not fond of rules. And they have no respect for the status quo. You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify them. About the only thing you can’t do is ignore them. Because they change things. They push the human race forward. And while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius. Because the people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world, are the ones who do.” I see these people, fighting to bring the truth to life, to uncover the manipulation, the fight for control of a few, the war against consciousness. They get into the “rabbit hole”, they are not afraid of fighting, of being ridiculed, they are in the arena and every day they get to show the world what is happening, in the world… This world needs you too, desperately. You are warriors and you are fearless, and I love you. Keep Fighting! Keep unveiling the masks and the lies.
I see
The ones that underline the importance of focusing on Love and only Love. You are right! It’s absolutely true! Please keep doing so because you have been called on Earth at this time for that, to anchor Divine Love, and to help this amazing awakening that is happening at this time. You are a pure JOY to behold. Your open heart is pouring Love into this Earth from the Heart of the Divine. I personally know some of you and I know what you had to move through to reach this point, where you heart is so open, where you can feel this infinite amount of Love for everyone and everything. I know how it feels when that moment arrives, where you finally say: “I don’t want to change anything in my past, because what happened to me then, awakened me to DIVINE LOVE”! I love you. Please keep loving this world back to wholeness.
What I experience inside, I see it in the world…. The two halves of me.
And I honestly asked myself where do I stand? What is my purpose? How can I make a difference in the world?
So, honestly how do I feel about all this?
My human side quite frankly wants to see the Gates and all the sociopaths like them being held accountable for what they are doing (media and social media included).
The real me knows there is NO WAR! The war they are trying to fight against human consciousness is not even possible. Who in their right mind could even start conceiving that??? Someone may have all the money of this world, be considered a genius or owning establishment after establishment but if they think they can enslave or harvest humanity or somehow control it have completely lost the plot (to put it mildly).
Humans and all living being on this planet are an expression of the Divine, of that Oneness where everything comes from. They may try to make you believe that they can control you (and they’ll try), to control your energy, put you in a fearful state with a threat or another so that they can control you even better. And you know why? Because fear makes people act irrationally, their energy is only used for flight and fight. When human beings are in fear, they are in a deep state of stress and they can only see the immediate surroundings, their own interests and needs (not the collective). They do not see the bigger picture. Your ego overreacts and instead of protecting you, it sabotages you. Long term stress will cause all sorts of mental, physical, and emotional issues…stress and fear are the primary causes of illness and disease.
They may even try to track you with a sophisticate devise, inject you with a useless vaccine IF you give them your power.
But You ARE THE ONE DECIDING AND YOU ARE THE ONE CREATING YOUR EXPERIENCE OF THIS REALITY.
Truth is NO ONE can own your HEART and your MIND. You are DIVINE and HUMAN, you are ONENESS and NO ONE and I repeat NO ONE on this planet or beyond can steal that away from you.
It doesn’t matter how much illusory power they seem to have. A war against consciousness is a war against your true self…. And that is so ill conceived and idiotic that honestly makes me laugh.
Your true essence is infinite and boundless, and nothing can contain that, or enslave it. The people that think that they can do it through (fake) power, (fake) money, (fake) interest in your well-being, isolation, manipulation of the news etc…. are so enamored with the illusion of their grandeur, that cannot see beyond their noses.
But illusion is mainly a bubble and the more you inflate it, the greater the risk of explosion…. I think that the bubble has reached maximum capacity now.
When people start realizing who they are (and this has been happening), BANG!
The bubble explodes, the old structures crumble under their (fake) weight and a new era will begin!
Actually, a new era has already begun…. Why do you think they are trying so hard?
You are the One creating your reality, you are Creator, you are Divine. You are ONENESS & LOVE, always remember that!
And I know in your heart, you already know this.
With Love
Michela xo
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